Im starting over somewhere else...

... I think. I just find it obnoxious to even read my own words at this point. But I don't want my past blogging to disappear. Maybe I'll leave it here. But I might want a fresh start. Idk I'm arguing with the idea of starting up on wordpress. I need to stop wasting blog topics on twitter... What to do?

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Where Do I Begin?

"We stopped blogging because the second we stated what was real you called us haters. There was nothing that excited enough emotion to hate on though. Nothing we envied... Later we grew tired of people with no valor stating their opinions. We're talkin AT you... not with YOU... But what would a blog be with no comments? I have no desire for a Tumblr account. Keep your random pictures... I'd rather write. There are writers and readers, people simply don't know their place anymore. So "We" gave up. No more copying and pasting, No more searching The scene, it wasn't worth it the hunt anymore... The inspiration simply void... That and my itunes playlist stopped playing and it was silent for too long while I was high. You know what they say happens when the music stops..."

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Haaiiii

Bitch.

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I dont know but,

This is the best song I've heard all month:

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Only One Good Song on a Whole Album?

Shoulda pushed shorties album back indefinitely. Timbaland fell off hard. Waaay too much Synth garbage going on. C'mon man step it up. Is she a pop or R&B artist? Does the latter even exist anymore? SMH. The track above is hard though.

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"Cause When You Try Hard, That's When You Die Hard."

Do us ALL a favor. CUT THE SHIT!


I need all the ladies who wore Puma bags one year ago while attending college to raise their hands... Now if you raised your hand but at the moment your style consists of "edgy" pieces you're officially a follower. You probably just made a blog or a twitter account with some kind of gun or razor blade as your background. You now like "biker boots" and have a keri hilson type of hair cut or dye job. You probably love Rihanna also.

I'm blatantly hating right? Maybe. Let me explain why the new wave of "Rebels" bothers me. 80% of the people I see in "the scene" grew up in a house in either: A. New Jersey B.Queens or C.Long Island. And I'm not talking to those of you who grew up in a house but it was still the hood. I'm talking Suburban two car homes where mom cooked dinner every night. You probably went to all 4 years of high school with no problem and even got punished when you acted up. You wore Joyce Leslie and lived for sneaking your boyfriend/girlfriend in through your window. Mommy money was always readily available. Even if you had to argue a bit and til' this day your parents paid for the first month, last month and deposit on "your" new apartment in the city.

So why would I give a fuck? Beautiful for you right? Why am I mad that your parents loved you and you came from a good home? WHY?! Because:

If that is who you are and how you were brought up...you probably go to Sway on Mondays but don't drink or smoke. So why the fuck would you want to be "edgy?!" Why do you act like you've ran through these streets when you were 11 cutting your hands on barbwire? Why do you think it's cool to look "hardcore" when you're sweet as a button underneath? I don't care or would ever dislike you if you were being you but don't try to be me or my friends. I rather you wear your Uggs (even I have a pair) and Ambercrombie hoodies. Go Drive the X3 they gave you for graduation back home please.

Why go try to live in Brooklyn and suffer like we used to? Do you feel the need to wear bullet chains so you can look a bit tougher? Is it to identify yourself more with the struggle you believe those around you have experienced?

Is it because you went to fashion school and picked up on trends and decided: Hey I like this Street Wear/Flannel 90's Grunge look and Ima go with it? But if that wasn't you last month why the transformation? If you bought Britney Spears' album but all of a sudden I throw The Rolling Stone's "Hot Rocks" on and you say "ohhh I love them!" But cant name them for me... ummm????? Why can't you just be you? You probably come around me and my girls and don't know what to do but agree with what we're saying.

I roll with a bunch of Psychos, girls whose dads were once crack heads, whose parents beat them, who smoked waaay too early and took the train to school in 6th grade.

Why do you want to be us while we wish we had it like you? Maybe I shouldn't have concentrated on the fashion aspect of it so much, because to each their own. But it's more like when I see people portraying a lifestyle they aren't living or never lived. Why the gun tattoos if you never shot a gun? (I HAVE!) How could that be significant to you if you grew up on an island with a rural family? You think getting beat up makes you "edgier" right? You've "been through something" now.
Suck my dick. For real! Please do! I wish I could gag you with it and make you fear for your life to give you some kind of real life threatening experience.

In the end (because I know someone will have some side shit to say about me judging others), but in the end: Please just be real, with you and your peers. Don't act crazy if you're not. You want to tattoo your face? Chill... be cute. Danger from "For The Love of Ray-J" can do that because HELLO! Shorty cried when they said they were goin to her home town to meet family. Now why would she do that? Duh, ain't nothin pretty back there. I'm not a 'Danger' type of rugged... but shit, I don't want you to meet my parents either.

I've been through more in 21 years of living than what a person with even the slightest bit more opportunity could have in 42 years. And I DONT EVEN ACT like it. 9-5 Monday through Friday, I'm prim and proper dressed for success with the best grammar one could have. But the Yale graduate in the graphic design department "loves Slaughter House and thinks Asher Roth should join them." C'mon man, what the FUCK? Just be YOU! Even if its not cool, I'm not always cool either. Have your own personal style, let it reflect who you are inside, it should meld every part of what has made you, together.

People ask me all the time: "Aye, why you always so angry?" Or tell me "Aye you're too raw, you mad crazy." It's not an act though, when the time is necessary you will see I'm ACTUALLY a tough chick. No need to wear a Butcher Knife on my head or post "Edgy" clothes on my blog I could never afford unless I still had mommy helping.
You know how expensive it is to look 'Grunge' now? Lol. Kurt Cobain is rolling in his grave right now as 90's babies trample above it in plaid shirts.

You'll know where you fit in when you move to NYC from the south into a 1 and a half bedroom, walk up... in the LES for $2000 a month. You'll walk in and your roommate will snorting lines off the moldy toilet top while some guy that looks like a dealer sit on the couch with his hands in his pants. You'll ask yourself... "Is this what being a 'hipster' is about? I'm calling my mom in Michigan so she can wire me some money"

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-Shouts to Erica my lovely, who always keeps her look fierce in her heels even though she works in a slightly hood area and is from "The South Side." She could wear a plastic bag to work if she wanted but always looks like if she's going somewhere special.

-Sam who works at Ambercrombie and ROCKS her SHIT! Ed Hardy hat and alll, and I don't hate in the least bit. That's her and she was running around outside @2am on a weekday when she was 9.

-Bee, who will wear OG Jordans to the most stuffy or trendy lounges but still be cute as hell.

-Kirsy, who refuses to ever over do it, and will be the baddest bitch in the room with some Converse All Stars on.

-Shiv who is always Lady Gaga fresh, loveeees color but will hip grind you out of the building.

-And even though we just met: Shar (and she's a designer), who always has an understated but very pulled together hippie chic look going.

(ALL OF THE ABOVE WILL KNOCK YOUR TEETH IN WITH THE QUICKNESS, but are ALWAYS the essence of what a lady should be. They also are so vast in their lifestyle habits it would be hard to really define them. We all know lines from Wu-tang to Kings of Leon to Keri Hilson.)

I'm going to post pictures as examples so you guys can start jackin soon.

Oh and me of course Circa EARLY 07':

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If you think I got some nerve to judge others and shouldn't be talking... um we obviously aren't friends. So...

As I wrote on Twitter: STICK A FIST IN IT BECAUSE WE NEED A GAP!

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Hey Ho...

...how you doin? How you been? Probably doin hoe stuff cause there you hoe again.

No bitch(blog), I actually love you. You're wifey. I just don't know how to deal with you sometimes. You tend to not give back as much as I give to you... so I stray. My Jumpoff(twitter) had been treating me right and I get instant gratification from her. She satisfies me on the spot, almost as if on impulse. But it's not the type of deep connection I have with you(blog). Jumpoff makes me giddy but you always kept me sane. She doesn't have the patience to hear me out or the capacity to hold all my thoughts(140 character limit). She's kinda young too and almost bird like. She's always chirpin with other people's business. She isn't very faithful either. The people she lets in our domain are sometimes very annoying. It's not like here where the only person you let get loud is me. :)

So Here I am back at your door step. I bring no gift or tricks. I just wanted to say hello and that I miss you. Soon enough I'll be ready to try to counsel it out with you and invest more energy into us. I just don't feel as eloquent or as creative as I once did, so until then I'm just going to send you songs to make you understand how I feel. I'm not dedicating them to you, I'm just presenting them to you. It's just what's easier for me.

Again, I love you and thank you for always being here... Exactly how I left you.

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About Me:

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This will be accompanied by a post if I feel like getting detailing my new transformation into "The Asshole."

And just when I was about to click the edit button.

See this is why I fucks with my dude.
Though we've some how lost touch... There is no love lost at all.
I've never read something and in turn felt like I was just about to write the same exact thing.
Went to check the homie's blog before I started to go in on my own and well look: it's like this:

"As goes with the blog game. It’s either sit here, blog my life away for your reading pleasures, copy and paste a bunch of shit that you can definitely find on 100 other blogs and twitter, update you on every little thing that happens in the world while you’re out living life…or stick to the mother fucking script…become one of THE GREAT ONES."
-KLEP ONE

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Need anyone say anymore? Click the link for the rest.

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Fuck You

But chill... I love you.

The two lines above just about sum up my relationship with the web right now.
I tend to want to get too emotional on here and I don't feel it's anyone's business to comment on my personal feelings. So obviously said feelings will stay private.

I have a love /hate relationship with the Internets therapeutic abilities and venting publicly is cool... until you realize people don't get it and that people even will go out of their ways to argue against you.

People fail to realize that blogs are not forums. If you really feel so strongly about something said on one you should go ahead and write your own god damn blog about it. Straight up. If something really effects your mental that much there's an X somewhere either to the far right or far left at the very top of your screen. You can close this box, you know.

Hence me simply not responding to people talking in codes on my blog with the anonymous cloak on. I am a hardened warrior and will go toe to toe with the best of you... but c'mon, show face and strike blows. Don't hide in the shadows throwing out sentences here and there just to be able to see something you wrote somewhere on the web.

I love insightful-ness so if you're ready to add to the discussion then join in, if not then go to Bored.com and play games or something. For real... it's fun there.

This whole URL right here is for me... not for you.


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Anything less than this is just that.

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Replacements are just that.

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Kings Of Leon - Sex On Fire

AHHHHHHHAAAAAHHAAA

Back to My Asshole Move of the Week Posts:

It's the last 5 seconds that had me rolling...

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Obama's Congressional Address

I truly love him, but damn... does every normal Presidential thing on his agenda have to be so damn Hollywood?
He doesn't even use his Twitter account anymore. I hope to god he never makes us regret electing him because I will feel like such a damn turd. The masses of anti- Obama-ers comments are starting to seep into my reality realm and I'm now worrying.
Michelle looked good though yesterday. Lmao @ all the "Michelle goes sleeveless" headlines. See what I mean?


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Kanye/Cudi Update for Timeline Purposes only

Yes, this is all late but my blog also serves as an archive for shit I once liked so... These go up for that one day someone says they never heard or saw these things. Then I can just come back here and find it, instead of scavenging the web in search of them:

Kanyeezy
Musica:
-Ft. The Dream- "Walking On The Moon"
-Ft. T-Pain- "Flight School"
Vid:

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Cudder
Musica:
-"09' Freestyle"
Vid:


And Der Ya Go.

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Damn

They're still suffering in New Orleans.

So, obviously we're being a tad facetious with the title of this piece. New Orleans ain't "all fixed." It's nowhere near. While it's true that some parts of the city are bouncing back rather spectacularly, all one has to do is pull up a copy of the Times-Picayune or cruise on over to its site to realize that it is still a living hell for a good deal of residents. NOLA's murder rate is closer to Baghdad's than any other American city, and continues to rise--a trend made all the more terrifying by the fact that the city's population is still a fraction of its pre-Katrina level. The economy's depressed, rents are up, neighborhoods like Central City and the Lower Ninth Ward look like they just got hit two weeks ago, rather than nearly two years... just stepping back and surveying the scene makes it seem like New Orleans' survival is barely hanging by a thread. But New Orleanians are stubborn and will remain stubborn no matter what the federal government/Bush administration/local politicians/gangs of murderous drug dealers/God decides to dole out to them. It's their curse and their salvation.

-VBS

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Meanwhile Obama just sent 17,000 kids to Baghdad... Yes, I said it and I know whats going on. And yes Steve, I know I voted for him. Hopefully he has a real plan though unlike previous war gods.
But this Doc right here got me wanting to write letters to someone like, how fucked is this world? Is Obama going to try to reform education yet? Someone send me a memo when he gets to that.

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Feel Better

Thanks to my Bestie E$ for showing me that the key to being happy is laughing at other people's misery:

Fuck My Life

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I never understood...

...how women could detach all emotion from sexual encounters and make sex a means to make money.
I know I'm very lucky to have been born a woman here in America versus anywhere else on the Globe. When I see things like the video below I especially feel blessed.
I know we have hookers here also though, which is why I'm sitting here thinking to myself why women ever started to sell their vagins.
I know its easy and a smart way to capitalize on an asset you obtained freely buuuut.
I just feel like women are very smart, emotional and in tune with their inner-selves. So why wpuld one let random people into their wombs? I studied psych in college for some of these same questions. I'd like to understand how bad experiences damage the brain into conformity and how one could lose themselves in a hunt for money. I mean even if you're a "sex addict." How did you get there? Why? Why put yourself in danger and willingly at that? What is the human addiction to despair and downward spirals? Do we like feeling pain? If you've never been happy in life does it mean you never will learn to be?
I'm rambling.
Watch the video below to understand my confusion and watch women selling their pussies as usual:


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Just Cause

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STILL ON TEAM JIMMY THOUGH! I miss Dipset like a mother fucker :(

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Sexay Fuckin PBR typa Music

Before you followers got on the band wagon and accepted other types of music, I had every Yeah Yeah Yeahs album on my ipod since their last one in 06'.
In the three years since then; I flooded my imeem account with them and put everyone that would give them a chance on to them.
I waited patiently, stirring quietly inside until my next dose of Karen O. screeching.
And now, at last:
Heads Will Roll
Click to download.
Their album "It's Blitz" drops April 14th. Stay tuned for more YYY's in the coming months/

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Again, Ed Banger since 04'...

Sebastien is a pussy terrorist... I swear. Do the french really need anymore excuses to have sex? Damn you Mr. Tellier!

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I promise to try my best

That's all I can guarantee.
Not going to put up too much music ish anymore because I already told you where you can find the latest stuff... Unless it's something I really love and feel it needs to reach out as far as possible.
Not sure what direction I'm going to take this blog on now, but I'm going to try to do at least one post daily.
You know who doesn't slack though?:

That guy.

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And so I tend to think...

A heart stands in a blackened room.
Still.
Afraid of what might reach out and grab it.
Afraid of the paranormal.

Anything that can actually grab a piece of what is physically left;
must be extra-ordinary.

Ghosts that linger and destroy,
But only emotionally...

For none can actually enter and touch.

But to possess...
You would indeed have to be a god.

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An Eminem Mood

Ok sooooooo
Yup, I'm mad. As usual.

Andddd I really want to slit someone's throat and watch the blood pour out all over the wooden floors while I laugh in delight.

A muslim TV founder beheads his wife, billions lost in Iraq, Obama gets a bill passed with only 3 Republican's approval and that 13 year old father from Britain gets a Maury test...

I also would love to finish this post but I work with faggots who can't do anything for themselves. So in about one hour I will go IN on the Blog.
Stay tuned... I promise.

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DRAKE

is that nigga.

Drake - So Far Gone

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After listening to this 3 times I have realized the above.
"On Let's Call It Off" he's spits the realest shit ever. The Calm is also one of those track that I will send subliminals through.
I'll be back.

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In Case You Weren't Informed:

[18:06] KLEP ONE IDJ ROC: well either way
[18:07] KLEP ONE IDJ ROC: theres no grade higher than a+
[18:07] KLEP ONE IDJ ROC: or higher than top notch

Blaow. Fuck what you heard before the above statement regarding good ol'Aye.
ONLY the above is true!

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Muahahahaha

Most Slept On Part 1

Throughout the week I'll be shedding some light on some seriously under marketed, not rising fast enough, artists.
Need I say more?

#1:J.A.M.E.S. WATTS
I had no fucking clue duke shot a video in MY HOOD...Smh.


-Point A: He's so humble he doesn't tell anyone about his shows and do I need to explain the mans talent? I mean, just go listen...
-Point B:
-Point C: He produced "A Better Tomorrow." Hence, the dude produces... Double whammy! Which makes the above banner even more true.

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More "Slept On" artists coming soon. (Wishing my blog had waaay more viewers and a little more pull.)

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I curse

too much.
But will never stop.
If you don't like it...
Go eat a Thai hooker's arse hole.

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PEEP THE TWITTER SIDEBAR FOR NEW ISH AND MY WEEKEND HAPPENINGS!

Your hair is thinning, your breath stinks and you have too many blackheads.

I am Buffy The Vampire Slayer and

I will fuucking slay you! Come test me!

Seriously will love this show forever, but that's not the point.

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MY MAN!

Repeating a promise made during the presidential campaign, the Obama administration yesterday vowed to stop the federal government from interfering in states with medical marijuana laws as soon as they can appoint a new head of the DEA.


“The president believes that federal resources should not be used to circumvent state laws, and as he continues to appoint senior leadership to fill out the ranks of the federal government, he expects them to review their policies with that in mind," White House spokesman Nick Shapiro told reporters.


Obama promised a hands-off policy on medical marijuana during his campaign, but since he took office the DEA, led by Bush appointed Acting Administrator Michele Leonhart, has nonetheless raided at least three medical marijuana dispensaries in California, each time seizing money and medicine, but making no arrests.


The administration’s renewed commitment to respecting states with medical marijuana laws follows thousands of phone calls to the White House, plus a flood of comments on change.gov, all calling for the President to make good on his campaign promise. Americans for Safe Access, the nation’s largest medical cannabis advocacy organization, greeted the statement with strong approval.


"Americans for Safe Access acknowledges President Obama's continued pledge to end federal interference with state medical marijuana laws," commented Caren Woodson, Director of Government Affairs. “We look forward to working with the President and his Administration to enact long-term policies that support safe and legal access to cannabis for therapeutic use and research."


Meanwhile, Sarah Pullen, a DEA spokeswoman refused to offer any explanation for the raids. “I can’t get into details as to the probable cause behind the warrants,” she said. “Except for the fact that they’re dealing with marijuana, which is illegal under federal law.”



Perhaps the DEA dead enders were trying to throw down a challenge to the incoming President, lest he get any ideas about actually reforming our disastrous war on drugs. Or perhaps it was just an easy payday.


An employee of Beach Center Collective in Playa del Rey told the Los Angeles Times that DEA officers confiscated so much property that the dispensary would not be able to reopen.



“They took everything,” said the 32-year-old employee, who asked not to be named. “You name it, they took it – right down to the television. The computer, patient files, medicine, cash in the register – that’s it, we’re done. It’s just too bad. [Our patients] have epilepsy, cancer, MS, diabetes – two of our patients have one leg. They’re gonna have to travel a lot farther and go to places that aren’t as safe for them.”

Article : HERE

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God, when is this medical use going to be passed in NY? I need brownies ASAP.

If my job ever monitors my comp use, I am seriously going to get fired. Smh, another thing that should be illegal is employee computer monitoring.

PS. GIVE MICHAEL PHELPS A BREAK!

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